Tuesday, April 8
WOW i haven't used my blog for very long! it's a good thing so no one would come and view what i'll have to rant!
I WANT AND I DON'T LIKE TO SHARE.
I THOUGHT I COULD ENJOY BY MYSELF
JUST LIKE HOW I GAVE MY ALL TO YOU ALONE.
why why why is it like that..
do you hear my heart saying she's jealous?
you demand my attention and don't like to share..
it's same with me here okay.
i gave you favor because i want to believe in you.
i didn't care when you had someone else
i didn't care when i couldn't trust you
i still wanted to give you my all.
i tried to make myself trust you
even when i get hurt whenever you talk about her
or with someone else
you question when i hang out with my good guy friends
i know you'll get affected
i tell you cos i wanna let you know i have nothing to hide and you can trust me
but i want to know i can trust you too!
i want to know that what i'm holding on to are not lies
but everything that's true from your heart
you told me to wait
you told me to trust you
i feel so cheap
i feel like i have to do so much to keep you liking me
i feel like i can't be myself
i have to keep trying to improve myself
that you can't like me for who i am
for the forgetful nature
for the temperamental times
for the petty things i look out for in you
am i not important to you that you don't want to put in effort to accept me and love me for who i really am?
why do you think i might want to hide my being stupid and slow and the other hideous traits to myself.
you know so much of me yet sometimes you seem to know nothing at all.
i'm a girl..
i told you..
i want to feel cherished.
and yes
i feel like your spare tyre
someone you'd turn to when no one's there
some one who'd stupidly accept you each time you tell her she's important when she's not even that important.
i feel stupid.
why's that.
something that seemed so private to you
that i hold dear to myself
hoping that in due time i can enjoy the fruits that bear
is now open to public?
i'm so not exclusive to you when you demanded me to make you exclusive lah.
where is together forever.
where am i in your eyes?
where is my unconditional love?
even if you were immature in that first year..
surely things that you said to me had to be true from your heart, no?
I WANT AND I DON'T LIKE TO SHARE.
I THOUGHT I COULD ENJOY BY MYSELF
JUST LIKE HOW I GAVE MY ALL TO YOU ALONE.
why why why is it like that..
do you hear my heart saying she's jealous?
you demand my attention and don't like to share..
it's same with me here okay.
i gave you favor because i want to believe in you.
i didn't care when you had someone else
i didn't care when i couldn't trust you
i still wanted to give you my all.
i tried to make myself trust you
even when i get hurt whenever you talk about her
or with someone else
you question when i hang out with my good guy friends
i know you'll get affected
i tell you cos i wanna let you know i have nothing to hide and you can trust me
but i want to know i can trust you too!
i want to know that what i'm holding on to are not lies
but everything that's true from your heart
you told me to wait
you told me to trust you
i feel so cheap
i feel like i have to do so much to keep you liking me
i feel like i can't be myself
i have to keep trying to improve myself
that you can't like me for who i am
for the forgetful nature
for the temperamental times
for the petty things i look out for in you
am i not important to you that you don't want to put in effort to accept me and love me for who i really am?
why do you think i might want to hide my being stupid and slow and the other hideous traits to myself.
you know so much of me yet sometimes you seem to know nothing at all.
i'm a girl..
i told you..
i want to feel cherished.
and yes
i feel like your spare tyre
someone you'd turn to when no one's there
some one who'd stupidly accept you each time you tell her she's important when she's not even that important.
i feel stupid.
why's that.
something that seemed so private to you
that i hold dear to myself
hoping that in due time i can enjoy the fruits that bear
is now open to public?
i'm so not exclusive to you when you demanded me to make you exclusive lah.
where is together forever.
where am i in your eyes?
where is my unconditional love?
even if you were immature in that first year..
surely things that you said to me had to be true from your heart, no?
throught it all?
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